just got home about 15mins ago.hahaz.sigh..know what happen?as some of you guys know that today i am going to the SIS for Rev Benny Hinn Healing crusade..wow!!the place is sooooo FILLED with people..and is really VERY FILLED...sOOOooOO FILLED till people like me who were in the queue since 4++pm..all the way till 8++pm, was not able to get in to the stadium.its so fullyyyy PACKED With MANY MANY people lohz...and many people got turn down..and was ask to be back tomorrow..some are not happy about it..and make fuss about it...some love to push and push...some fainted...and some really fainted till like they have to cling on thier relatives i think..there's an old lady,manz...can you imagine,she is also in the queue...faRRR faRR back from mee....and i was standing for sooOO long till both my legs are ACHING...whats more can the old granny afford to tolerate?she is already bai far chang chang le..sigh..and some people just sooo NOT considerate...just keep pushing and pushing...till everyone is shouting....STOP PUSHING and even me..haha..well..not very loud..hahaz...i think i scream noone can hear also haha!i really want to go into the stadium lehz..sigh...nevermind...tmr will be a better service..haha!!!well...here are the pictures of many people...ahahaz...from bai tian wait dao tian hei hei...sigh.......


eh..im a little short..so cant take picture of more people yah hahazz....


hehe..nice?????i took it worz..to entertain myself...under the hot weather..and getting fed up with people who keep pushing!!aRGGHHHhhHHH


welll...in the midst of waiting...my very old friend..peiwen aka ah wen...was in the same queue as me...and she is not feeling well...having pains in her stomach...poor gal...must take real care ah wen...hahahz


these are the people who cant get into the stadium....from bai tian till tian hei hei sia...so many people...some even flew from indonesia to singapore just for this Healing crusade by Rev Benny Hinn...


look!!the people...so many of them...included me myself...cant get in...sigh.......


look!!i raised my hand HIGH HIGH!!SEE more PEOPLE Le HOR!!hahaz


its me...together with jasmine....hahahz....in school hahaz

well..that's all for the pictures...im gonna really step in the SIS TOMORROW!!!i really wan to seee......Anne told me...blind got healed......ppl lying on the dunno wad that called...got up and got healed...man!!!!i really want to seee!!!!!!!

tomorrow gtg for NDP thing...after that rush to SIS heee....weeEEE!!!feeling so excited now!!

know wad..i did this test..took it from a friends blog...like wad age do i act...man!!!i feel so old after i finish the test....know wad's my age?25 sia!!EEEwww...i den dun wan so old....its says:20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.[well..i am excited for everything everyday..im excited for love...im excited for what i will do in the future...well..and also to gain new experiences...but likdat...25years old mehz?siao lehz...i dun wan so old sia...can i be a kid?kids thinking very ke ai lehz hahaahaha!!!!!

okie...im getting a little mad here..haha

gtg le...take care everyone!!!!Love you all to bITITTTTTTSSSSS...MUAccccKKKKK!!

Be Blessed!!!

well.slacking at for now.sigh.feel so fustrated lohz.sigh..don't wish to talk abt it.i've already forgiven you.that's all i can say.

school was fine.nothing happen..well thanks Justin for sending all Canon in D music for me.thanks...i just love it haha!its so nice!!!!!!!!thank you soOOoo much!!!

weee..tomorrow Rev Benny Hinn is coming to the Singapore Indoor Stadium..wEEE!!!its a healing crusade...i need to be healed...for everything...tmr have to rush down straight from school as doors will be open at 6pm..cant go home and change...so gotta wear uniform down...hahahz..

im tired...gtg my lalala land...

take care peeps...

love you all..

disappointments..im so filled with disappointments...with what?with the people i see in school..and with some friends i have in school..im just disappointed..

the story goes like this, i have a friend, a friend whom i trusted most in school, a friend whom i thought is different from the others..a friend whom i thought is mature enough..a friend whom i thought that wouldn't play me..or shall i say,take me as a joke?or just take me for the sake of fun?for the sake of disturbing?well..this particular person,gave my msn away to someone else..and that someone else act as a person whom..i fancy..and im like already feeling so bothered by this person that i fancy..trying not to think about him and continue on my studies...not getting distracted by anything...but this friend or not friend anymore?do not know how to be a little considerate..a person who does not think of consequences...does not think how would another part feels if he/she is being treated this way...okie...back to my story..was saying this person gave away my msn..and to that friend of This PErson...that friend enjoys it so much to play me...asking for my age asking for my school..asking for my number...and even say...give me your number so i can sms u goodnite message..and the friend even said...shall i pick u up in school?well is either pick up or wadever...i don't remember...such...silly childish things..and i ask my this friend WHOM i TRUSTED!!asking if this friend gave away my msn...AND this FRIEND..happily says:no..denying that THIS friend do not know the e-mail address i ask!well..and my this friend continued on the journey to trick me,play me,irritate me,disturb me..taking me as a joke...thinking im alright about it...thinking JESSIE IS SUCH A EZ PERSON to DEAL WITH..thinking that even if this person goes overboard, i will not be upset..thinking that everything will be JUST FINE!and they both,happily continueeeeee....till when i found out,and how i found out their stupid...plot.....it shall be kept confidential..hahaz.long story..don't want to say..well..or i can say..im smarter?im not only SMART...i MUST BE SMARTER..and i wILL BE.for with God...all thing are possible...

oh yes...when i know its the friend..i told that friend to stop playing..and even..said the name of THAT friend...and THat friend...happily...continue...acting....well...OBviously....the act failed!i was sad about it...VERY sad about it...a friend i trusted most in school,a friend who is impt in my life also..a friend who i hang ard with all the time..a friend whom i thought is a great person....doing things likdat...just for fun...JUST FOR THE STUPID SAKE OF FUN!and thanks...for the tears i drop again...calling ting....miss ting even more each day goes...noone understands me except my cgm and ting jo mel etc...noone knows who i am expect them,noone knows anything except them..and the both of them....are also my friend.....oh gosh...why would friends do such things to one another...hurting them this way?sigh.......thanks.......THANKS so much...well..its another way of moulding my character...and now i know theres such people on earth...welll....they are the FIRST people who did that to me!!!!!!!thanks SOOO much!!!!!"THANKS"

sigh...wish june 20 will come asap.........will it jus come....now?now????sigh....now pleasE?sigh....or can i just faster finish this poor one year course...and fly out this place....i wish i could keep on keeping on...i wish i could just hold on to the rope..but i just feel like letting it off now....im tired of holding on....im just soooooooooo tired....................HATE IT!

sigh....wad a day!WAD A DAY!!!well...its been a great interesting day...a character moulding day...........

it will be great if those people just stop when i sae stop!it will BE JUST SO WONDERFUL GREAT!!!!

God bless those people!!!

i want a big heart...a heart filled with forgiveness...a heart filled with patience...a heart filled with mercy............................a just want a big big big big heart!!!

take care everyone....

Thanks to the people who make me drop tears..................................................

sigh...i miss you so much...hao bu rong yi ke yi he ni zai yi qi...but you left me again......................

the few hours we spent,just sitting on the sofa...the precious moment...the moment where you and me talk laugh...but they came....and bring u back.....still remember our hands..holding on together while taking the cab back home...hold on together from the time u left the house till the time u reach my house..i really miss you sooooo much...seeing you leaving my house back to thier house...i really hate that feeling....~tears dropping down againnnnnnnnnnnnn

why would they want you to go over?why would they?????coz of the maid...coz noone can take care of you..i want to,but i have to go school...i want to see you everyday....but...coz of noone to takecare of you..i cant see you...

he say i don't apreciate the things he did...wad must i do so he will feel that i apreciated everythig he did for me?what else more do he wan?

she wants to come back so badly...fell on her head yesterday...saw one bruise mark on her arm...she cant walk properly...she misses me everyday....she says:in her mind she misses me,but she did not say it out... i miss her so much but everything just cuts in my way...i want to see her everyday....

whatever...whatever.....whatever..........................................................

hee..just got home from bedok..went for cell group meeting..hahaha!!!after cgm...had refreshment..marvin prepared the refreshments for the cg...wow!!marvin cook fried rice for us!!!!isn't he gReaT?haha...butttt..butt...the rice...is filled with oil..........hahahzz...which makes it look so shiny...hahaha!!!but it still taste great!hahaha...yum yum...

hmm..after eating...shar went church..edwin peishan went off..and rowena rochelle..and etc went off..left jae,tf,xin-er,jan,mike and me..hee...and we...decided to play the piano!!!haha..wow...i know how to play piano worz..haha..i love it!!!anne played cannon in d..WOW!!!i really love it!!and i really want to play it also!!!i wannnnnnnn!!!hahazz....and tf played guitar...wow..he know how to play guang huai fang shi worz...Tf u ji li hai worz...hahaz..

hmm..im tired..need to clean up e house..sianz..must do housework...hmmm..

lalalalalala...

-gone-

got home about half an hour ago.yAwn~im tired~...today school ended early!!yippeeEe..lesson ended at 12pm haha!was eating lunch at tampines mall..wanted to eat ljs de..but one of my friend cant eat that for a month..so i don't want to tempt her also.so i don't eat lohz haha!

hmm.yesterday don't have time to blog..sigh..know what happen?can you believe that i actually have difficulty in handling dead xiao qiang..i spent half and hour yesterday screaming at home..together with melissa..it was 12+++am then,both of us screaming...don't know how to take that xiao qiang away..its my house,so i got to think of a way to get rid of that yucky xiao qiang..i hate xiao qiang lohz..sigh..i don't even dare to get close it..yuck yuck yuck!!EeeeeeEE EErrRRrrrrr....i was so scared of that xiao qiang loh..then its like it died overturn which is 4 jiao chao tian type lahz..den i use paper wanting to take it up onto another paper..and i OVERTURN it..man!!!and it look so ALIVE!!and i SCREAM and RUN!!leaving the paper back onto the floor.the xiao qiang look so shiny and the mao is moving..due to wind lah hahaz..im just so imaginative,thinking it might come alive halfway lahz..den..no choice i still gotta settle that xiao qiang..and i went back..kneeling on the floor..thinking how to get rid of it..well..as u know..i had never touch dead xiao qiang,all was done by the maid and grandma..so i never do anything..now i gotta handle it...i seriously have got NO courage to do that!but then,called nelson..ask him how..and nelson..laugh at me!hahaz..whatever..haha..then nelson say use newspaper..so i use lohz..i still don't dare to take it..then melissa find chopstick and pull the paper where the xiao qiang is at onto the newspaper,and its my turn,i gotta bring it to the open/close dustbin..and that very time,to the dustbin seems like a long distance...when i took it up,and walk afap to the dustbin..i did not dare to open that..i scream and jump and screamMMmm....melissa also don't know what to do..i just scream and said:MEL FASTER OPEN THAT THING!!!!NOW FASTER FASTER FASTER!!!!and i continue screaming ahha!!and i threw that xiao qiang in liao..i kick the thing to close it..and i ran back to my room....annddddd..........i cried...scared la!the thing is sooooooo super errrr xin.....after that...done...nothing disturb me liao.hahaz.my terrifying experience...that xiao qiang!YUCK!i hate xiao qiang sOOOooooOOOo much!

hmm...later im gonna go church...weEEeee...i misss everyone there...so long never see u all liao...hahazz..got miss me mah everyone?hahaz

-gone-

just send joanna darling off from my house..today my this darling super good worrz..sms me in the morning ask me if i want to have dinner with her tonight hahaz.and dinner at my house haha!good right?hahaz..hmm..

lesson ended at 4pm today and i rush home and wait for joanna's arrival..haha..den the both of us when to buy junk food..for our dinner haha!i ate noodle again haha!we bought chocolates...and the chocolate is the big big one lehz...cant finish by one person de..need to slowly eat de..den nata de coco..haha..grape flavour...buy liao but never eat...sianz..den bought Ribena haha!!but never drink also...dunno why joanna buy liao but never eat de..den she use the computer while i am doing the housework hahaa!!jo says the food give me..hahah..wow...darling lei hou hou worz...i si ni le lah...hahaz!!

SIGH!im very not happy at all lohz..sigh...today...i got back my Office Organisation test paper on Accounts Function 1..and i cant believe it that i did so badly...i scored only 36.5/60 only lohz!and i know i can do better than that!!!but i did not do it!!!wei ser mer zhe yang???!!!i felt so discouraged when i saw my marks...my heart sank at that moment my eyes touches the mark!!!!!i cant believe it!!!i want to go poly so badly......sigh......

its been almost 2weeks of being independent....and living alone..it's scarY?actually a lot of people want to be staying alone...they feel its better...but i dun...i want my grandma to be with me...sigh...i want to see herRRrr...aRGhh..why do they wanna take my grandma oveR?for wad?sigh...my house is soooOOooo quiet..cant stand the quietness...eventhough i love peace..i love to places that are quiet..but...at home....tooo quiet....is like....so not JESSIE lohz..sigh...imagine..jessie..keeping soooOoo quiet at home?and its really quiet..and all i did was to BLAST songs OUT LOUD so that i feel a little noisy?hahazz...

sigh...sianzzz....lalalaala....

nitez pplz

guess what did i do at home today?i did loadsa things..i dump the clothes in the washing machine..sweep and mop the floor..kitchen..scrub the bathroom..scrub like mad..till my backbone aching now.hahaz.and den hang clothes...till 1015 likdat..den eat my dinner..was in pain since like erm....9+?oh ya..and i don't know what i do..my thumb hURTssSZzZz..oh..and i washed my basin hahaha!!

few weeks back,i took this English qualifying test.took this test to see if i am gonna go to the NA Level or straight to the O Level english class.well..i was not really prepared for the test..but still,i went...and i got stuck at the paper for abt 15mins?and i prayed..ask God for help..and..God is good..He helped me worz!i wrote an occasion where i thought i was not able to do it...something likdat la..and..today..i went to check the results....im being appointed straight to the O Level class..heez..Praise The Lord!well..i woundn't mind to hold just an O level cert with english!hahaz

hmm..did project in school today..hopefully can clear all the project asap...so i wun stress..hahazz

im tired...yawn...

God Bless everyone!

nitezz

just got home from town..phew..hanging around town for like awhile im already tired.ahaaz..went to watch this cartoon..actually don't want to watch de lohz..only qian jiu yi xia that yingting haha!she wanted to watch this cartoon entitled castle.haha this show..hmmm interesting..alright loh...but i still prefer..watching other shows like HITCH..hahaz..and CONSTANTINE!!ARgghhh Keanu Reves is like..phuaaaaaaaa hou HANDSOME ARh...hahahzzz..oppss...okie enough of handsome people hahaz..

today..was suppose to meet melissa and yingting at 930am at outram station to go to my school's open house together..but den,im late haha..so i met them at the station at around 10++..reached the school at 1104..hahaz..so sorry that i came late..but nvm right,the both of you can keep talking mahz..see i so good horz?hahahz

i was suppose to usher my friend,romeo and his brother around my school...but den,i really hope i can show them around...but..i myself just noticed that i also don't really know the school that well worz..saddening horx..sigh...then..met them,went to have lunch..wonder what do they think of the food at the cafeteria...good or not good?hHAaa..im seriously soo soo really so so sorry that i did not bring you guys around to get to know the school more..zhen de sorry...

okie..its kinda late..gonna go prepare to get to my lalala land..hahaz..

take care everyone

love you all

be blessed

nitezzzzzz

heez..just finish watching vcd..hmm..i was watching My Date With Vampire.haha.the show is like..erm..funny?its something like adam and eve..but erm..abit different only haaz..now no more show to watch liao.-yawn-

just now was on the way to aunt's place to take allowance..went with wilson and janice hahaz..my darling bro carried me on his back worz..and walk down the stairs worz..haha..so good right..hahaz

hmm..tomorrow im gonna go for my school's open house..ting is coming..mel is coming..i want to see you all..i miss you all so so so so much!i cant wait to go to school together with u guys every single day!can apply a little fasteR?hahahhazzz

hmm..today my da sao ironed my uniform for me worz..haha so good right...comfirm can be da sao le worz..hahaz..i like my this da sao..super kind hearted..caring..nice...wow..very good la..clever also hahaz...

ting..i really cant wait to see u more in school worz..i wanna stay in the same school as u and mel worz...faster comeeeeeee!!!confirm can come in de...u think can means can hahaa!!!!!

sigh..im like so bored now...lalalalalalalalalala........

just finish bathing...feeling so cool now haha!fREsHHh!hahaz..well..rush home from seminar,reach home around 1130 pm i think...should be earlier...but i stupidly miss one stop while dreaming in the train haha!!hmm...

today serminar was so GREAT!yesterday was BETTER but i did not go...miss it..sigh...regretted!!i should have gone there..yesterday Rev Ulf Ekman preached about friendship..like how to handle friendship...i missed that seminar!!aRGhhhhhh

today...Rev...i forgot the name sia...said..FEAR NOT!! FEAR NOT!! FEAR NOT!! for so many times..i was wondering how come he keep on saying that.. but i did not notice that God is trying to tell me thru him..that i shall not FEAR..FEAR NOT!know why?these days...i've been so afraid of this and that..afraid that my result will worsen...or my project will not be done..fear for this and that...things that are not impt im worrying too...i should have told myself that im not a born worrier...im having worries for nothing that i cant sleep as ease at night..den for nothing...or for small little thing i started to cry..its so not mEE...its so not Jessie Tay loh..i realised that i need God so much that every single day..i cant Live without HIM...His guidance...everything...it means so much to me..and i must get heavenly minded but not earthly minded..i don't want to be a worldly person..and i never and NEvEr want to get influence by worldly people...i want to be who God calls me to be...i want to be a woman of God.i need to pray more now...seek God more..i really need His help...i need you so much Dear Lord...

well today...school went just fine haha!during ofo lesson...MAN...the class is SOOOoooo noisy..like a cai shi chang..so noisy...classmates keep talking non stop...don't know why and how come they got so much to talk about that they aren't concentrating to what Mr Tay is teaching...they are like taking Mr Tay for granted...when i heard Mr Tay says that he don't feel like teaching...i felt so not happy at all..but what can i say...sigh...i really hope my classmates knows and understand what does it mean by overboard..and a person tolerance level can be high...but please don't overdo and think Mr Tay are those kinda teacher that is easy to be bullied..but i love my friends..haha!!i love them so much..they are like fellowshipping every now and then haha!!

hmm guess that all for now...tired..haha

take care ppl..Love you all to bits!!

God Bless!!

PheWwwww..finally finished packing up the house..my first time washing toilet in my house.its been years since i last washed any toilet and put back all the plates all lahz.and folding the clothes..its been so long since i last did that loh hahaz..and i finally know how to use that washing machine hhaa..just dump all the clothes into the machine and let it do the rest haha!packed everything..wow..now..it aren't that hard to do household chores..hmm..see if im home early i will do the mopping hahah..hee..i wonder if doing housework will lose weight anot.its like exercising hahaz...but its quite tiring though ahah...hahha..

today went to school..well everything went great i think?haha because im totally happy today..hahaz..noone disturb me..haha..sigh..had Office Organisation test on accounts funtions 1..i got stuck at the last question..the statement of accounts sigh...did not really learn that part..hmm.

after school,went to tampines mall hahaz..with nelson and jun yong..hee..went to starbucks and have a drink..the weather is like sooooooOOoo warm and i cant take that heat manz..hahaz..den went to walk around...i bought one vcd haha! its princess diary2!!!hahaz..den while looking through all the vcds in the shop..came across this vcd called...grudge...MAN!its scary lohz haha!!

hahaz..well..my day went great today..thank God for the day i had today..

take care all..

AHEM..i type a LONG LONG entry just now...and..my leg...went to push on the restart button and everything is GONE!!!aRGH.nvm..typing again is a good way to learn to type faster than the usual haha!

well as i was saying..i learned about being big people..and big people forgive and forget everyday.big people are generous.big people are accepting of differences.big people empower others to b successful.big people don't try to be big people.big people treat little people well.big people listen.big people honor leadership and guidance.big people respect manners and spatiality.big people have big capacity.and i want to be big people..i never want to hate people..hate the things i do..big people forgive and forget..and i really need to be a person that is forgiving and about to forget things that aren't good..well..these days..been struggling with forgiving...coz..i have a friend..someone impt to me..talks about me behind my back..saying bad things like..jessie think she very pretty ah..think she very clever...tooot tooot tooot so on and so forth lahz.its so sad to have a friend likdat..but i know God has a plan for me..to mould my character..with people like her..well train my emotions..my anger..and my anger managment..haha..and i know i can do it..and that is for sure..haha..and again..i am who i am..i am who God calls me to be..and Do NOT Judge..

yesterday..learn about being a thankful person..and having grace..Grace in Greek means thank you..and to have grace mean to express thanksgiving..things like asking a friend to pass a chopstick to you...saying thank you shows appreciation..an unthankful person cannot find grace with God..im thankful to everyone who is part of my life..everyone of you means a lot to me..

i've decided not to move over to aunt's place as i think staying at my house is better becoz its a better way to school here then from her house and..i never like staying unders people's control...and i have my own house..what for i stay with others..hmm..don't understand why grandma gotta move as my house have got one empty room and that is grandma's room..don't know why they want grandma to move..sigh..i miss my grandma...

i've watch constantine...WOW the show is shoooo soooo interesting...funny...nice haha!!!!

had family dinner on thurdays..hee..took pics again...got more..check out the tay family bloggie..dunno upload le mah hahaz

sigh...actually got a lot more to type de...but...sadly..i forgot liao...but nvm.i've got picturessss here..hahahzz


look...its alice me and jeremy....look at jeremy....sooo sooo cuteee


ahem its me..hahaz...look at the background...nice right?its painted by the cg and me...haha!!


joanna and meeee....




huggiessss


i noticed black background looks nicer hahaz...eventhough im like a pink lover hahaz




im tallllllll hahahaz



hee...thats all..haha..sigh..got more to type de loh..all the leg of mine fault hahaz...nvm...haha

just see pics lah..haizz...cannot take it lohz...legGGgg..

take care people...

fiZA and meeEe


mee..iskandar and fiza..haha..


fiza and mee again


ermm...me again..


look!! i draw de..haha..too bored in class..too tired..trying not to zzz...so i do drawing lohz..


again...hee...still in the valentine mood lahz hahaz


look at this table..pink table worz...and who will sit there?JESSIe lah hahaz...


Nelson me and fizaaa...


yes....wad can i do for u?hahahazz....having breaktime..to entertain myself..i take pic again ahaaa


took with joanna.hee...

okie..thats all for the pictures..

well today school okie lah...saw that irritating guy..he thought i will stared at him again...he walk past he make this very gu liang HUMPH sound sia..i was like OMGYM!! i said...so childish...well..said right infront of everyone,teachers also..haha..guess the teacher also heard wad that guy did..it so sad that he won't feel that he had make himself look like a fool..

sigh..today..was kinda..upset..yupz..with one friend of mine..she scolded the four letter word in sms and raised her voice at fiza and me when we called out her name at the cafeteria..i was shocked..did not expect any friend of mine to be so rude to me..as i told her so many times not to use vulgarities...know y i said that?your words reflects on your character...she was angry lohz..of waiting..well here the story goes: i ask her..if she wanna go to the washroom..she said no..so i ask fiza to accompany me..so fiza nelson and me went to the washroom..and she went to her locker den agreed to wait for us at the cafeteria..and sun bian book table for us...after the 3 of us get out of the washroom..we accompanied fiza to the school bus stop to wait for her bf..and we waited..and when we reached the cafeteria...lookin for her...saw her...called her name...she raised her voice with anger on her face..that four letter word came out..LOUD AND CLEAR..everyone heard lohz...sigh...i ask another girl..she waited very long ah?well all i know was that she can always give us a call to ask if we are reaching the cafeteria...someone ask her to call..know wad she sae?no need lahz..for wad?...huH?i tot she is waiting for us?and she dunno where are we?so she can call us to check if we are reaching wad?but she didn't...instead of talking things out..she scolded that word! she owe me an apology.. as her friend..she never even mind her words..and i said so many times not to use those ugly words...ppl dun listens...wad so nice abt those dirty ugly filthy words?i ignore her in the end..she wants to talk to me..i can always talk to her..i seriously thinks that she need to fan sing abit..words likdat hurts...sigh...must be a person with big heart..i forgive her...

sigh..ytd...sigh...was so sad...but well.everything is fine now...

hmm..went out with joanna today...Goodness....finally.......after like SOOoOooo long can...miss her sososososo much ahhaz...went to take neo prints ...haha...

im so tired...gonna zzz le..take care everyone...

heez.just got home from bugis..sianz. know why i go bugis for?to change my skirt that i bought.thinking it's kinda loose decided to go back to change for s size..den..my m size horz..is loose..den s size horz..TTOOO TIGHT.hahaz.in the end feel that looser is better den too tight hahaz..well wasted trip hahaz.

today go school..after lunch..saw this irritating guy..Arghh..not i dislike the looks he got.is i dislike his character so much lohz. he cant handle rejection lohz.totally cant loh. rejected him,he cant take it..keep saying me..well bad things lahz..walk pass me show those childish action..den i was so fed up that very time..so i decided whenever i walk pass or i saw him i will just stare at him with anger in my eyes..show him that enough is enough.it was the past actually..few weeks back only..but i hate it so much that he is carrying such attitude..today..did not see him first but jasmine did..so she told me lahz..i told every of my friend there..telling them who this no manners guy is..jasmine told me that the guy was pointing at me..well i was even angry..i pointed back..telling everyone nor...this is the guy loh..den i guess that guy knows his mistake bah..he never even come any nearer to me worz..waiting for lift he seems like hiding man..but too bad i still can see him.he from waiting for lift ended up walking the stairs instead..im really not happy with him loh..why is he likdat...the actions that he did when i walk pass his class..manz..he is totally like those uneducated people lohz..cant take it..sigh..think i should stop staring at him lohz..should not bear grudges..must be big person cannot likedat...i will be a big person instead of a small person..but wad if he do that action again?that rude uncivilized action again?wad should i do?stare at him or just knock on his class door and speak to his class adviser?i go to school to study lohz..not meet people like him lehz.i don't even want to meet people like him.i don't know how much longer i have to tolerate this people..sigh...but these days i'm having a little peace in school ahhaz...Thank God for that little peace!!

today i mistaken sharina and juli as one person can..i took juli as sharina and sharina as juli..coz the both of them just look alike so much loh..haha...so sorry juli and sharina...did not mean to..sorry..

having project in school soon...sigh...stressed...

later family dinner at home again..and meeting again..sianz....

it's valentine..wow..so good loh..all the couples..as for me..i will spend my valentine with my family hahaz.while i took train from tanah merah to bugis den after bugis to outram..sigh....i felt so jealous of the couples..ahaz..so so jealous worz...hahaz...carrying the flowers given by their boyfriends..wow..sooo xin fu hahaz...Happy Valentine everyone!

Juli, Me and Fiza..hahaz..took it during Mr Tay's lesson.during our breaktime hahaz.


it's Juli, Me and Fiza again...hahaz


Azura, Me and Jasmine trying to pose don't know like wad sia..but erm..and that nelson so extra ahahhhaah!! jkkk....


it's meee and fiza


it's me and fiza again... hahahz...


it's me and sk..


it'a Nelson and Mee...hahaz


sk..me and sharina....


wei ming juli and accompany


it's me and sharina


sharina..juli..azura..me..fiza and nelson...


we are like so..nerd..hhaha nelson fiza and wo..


wo her yanping


this is jasmine..she is like super friendly lohz ahaz!!


fiza..the girl that always thinks that i don't like her..sigh..tel her so many time don't think too much haha!


we're just trying to act cool...which i don't think i look like one..look at nelson..ahahz!!so cool sia!!


sharina jasmine and sk


juli and jasmine


juli jasmine and nana...

okie..that's all for now..hahaz..don't know if i miss out any pictures...too many le lahz..i upload till i gong le.hahaz.this are some my friends in my class OC hahaz..they are great people!!! so friendly to everyone..ahahaz..

well today..school started at 8am and ended at 12pm..so good right..actually not so early de loh..some students want to go home early hahaz..esp me..teacher ask us to raise up our hands..i put my hand on my head hahaz...don't know should i or should i not..hahaz..in the end..our teacher is good..let us off early..

today got my class test result again...this time round never really do well lohz..only got 21/30 nia haiz.. Mr Tay put a fair good remark on my paper sia...

going out later....muaaahhhhhahahahaah....finally can go out im like so happy..hahaz

take care peoplez...love you all...

Got home about half an hour ago frm aunt's place. ate steamboat again at aunt's house for lunch.as for dinner,had chicken wings and the delicious sweet and sour soup. hahaz. didn't get scolded today hahaz. guess aunt in good mood lohz hahaz..

sigh. its new year eve yesterday..and poor me..had a small argument with my dad.sigh..he wanted me to help out to work at the coffeeshop which i don't want cause i seriously want to do well in school, i don't want my school work to be affected. and if i help out at the coffeeshop, by the time i finish school and go to the shop i will be super tired to even work. and is like i have to handle with the cashier thing..waa..if anything wrong with the money..i will be in serious trouble loh..and my family is like quarelling over money matters..sigh..i don't want to get involved..dad don't get what i want and he is forcing me to do what he wants me to do..im told him that i don't want but he say what "bao da" he want me to "bao da" by helping out. and know what he say? he said...work for money is important or go to church important..i said...why do u drag church into this problem again..he said..see everytime i say church u not happy.but the fact is the working and the "bao da-ing" is so different from going to church loh..and then we argue till we drag the past into the prob..like the canning all that..but know what my dad say..he said who ask you so KL that why that man whacked you.my heart sank,my dad did not even protect me did not even take care of me.now he is telling me that i am KL that y that man whacked me like a mad man.i answered him saying..as u know ALSO..that man is unreasonable..then my dad continue saying im KL that y i got into it. i was just a small little girl then,so is it all my fault for all that canning i've got?is it all my fault for being such a innocent girl then?is it all my fault that i do not have a good character?dad did not even take care of me for the past 13-14 years..he don't even know what kind of daughter he got..he don't even know what my likes and dislikes..he don't even know what im doing now..he don't even know what am i studying about..i did not even complain anything about that..i'll take it that he got to work to take care the family and that is y he is in taiwan.and he got another family over there..i did not even hate the other party..i did not even hate him for all the past suffering i went through..i did not even hate anything he did.and i did not even hate him for what he said.can u believe it,my dad wanted to disown me when i was in sec 1-2.i did not hate him.i still yearn for him to come back home every year.i still wants to see him.i still love him so much.i stil call him dad.and from the time he reach singapore till now,he did not even say anything good about me..did not even encourage me..like my test..i was studying in front of the tv..he said he wonder how did i do in my test..different people have got their different way of studying..and i really did well afterall..eventhough i was watching the televison while revising..he don't trust me..he says i "pai chi"the tay family which i DON't.he say i got things against the family...which i really don't..says i have a bad character..am i really such a bad person that he say?my character is that bad?i thought i've changed for the better?or did i change for the worst?

yesterday..everyone was at my house.for reunion dinner..thought everything will go on fine which it did not..everyone is like against my da gu..why cant they just sit down and talk things out in a proper manner instead of scolding?i just think that the ic thing and the tomb thing is totally 2 different thing..well im still the younger generation wan..cant say anything..but what they says affect my grandma..affect her so much..which in the end coz of grandma it affected me coz i dun want my grandma to be in the situation wherby her children are all quarelling.and grandma feel so sad that she cried can.sigh..i hate it so much to see grandma cry.she is already my grandma and she still got to worried so much.so long nv see grandma smile and laugh..just now she finally did...after i said something..eh which i forgot haahz.

dad is still not home.wonder what time he is coming home..he is still working at the coffeeshop..called him..talk less than one min he say.i working bye bye...likdat only can..we did not even see each other for like one whole day.don't think he miss me the way i miss him..sigh..

happy new year everyone..

just got home about 2 hours ago.heez.the weather is like so HOT now.cant take the heat manz.

today woke up kinda late haahz..at 7am.i am tired.dragged myself to school.ahah..i was in a rush till i forgot to bring my landyard -tag- the -tag- means that im the student from the school and i got to use the -tag- to tap at the card reader for my attendence to be marked.but unfortunatly i left it at home hahaz.

had my class test..hmm..wasn't that difficult but i was so stucked at one of the question about the three distribution channels,the advantages..i did not really studied that part.i only read through sia. then i almost forgot the five funtions of the sales or marketing department, i was so scared that i will lose marks.i close my eyes and try to remember..which i eventually did!hahhaz..God is good.

well.today i was a little upset over this classmate of mine.i cant take it that he is acting gu liang wherever he goes. he talk he eat all so gu liang..he is more gu liang than i am worz.sigh..and he talks...manz..bet most guys wana bash him up.why cant he be a little more like guy?he was born to be a guy not a girl.and he walk like horse...stamping his feet on the ground.well..i have no choice but to raise my voice at him to tel him to walk properly.well he continued walking like a horse still.sigh..can someone please help him!!!tell him so many times to be more like a man.to talk like a man.to behave like a man.but..he don't listen..when he gets bullied..he felt sad..but all this is created by he himself. he knows that people will sure look down on him..disturb him..sigh...why is he likdat?aRgHh..

recently i felt that some people are super sensitive..get hurt so easily..sometimes my reaction may cause people to feel sad..but they have mistaken me...i don't look down on people or wad.or my face cause them to feel this way?if i am hard on people..some say im being hostile..if im friendly with people..i feel that im being taken for granted.i don't want to "fall down" again..

waiting for my dad to come home from sim lim tower..hungry.........he so long de.....*YaWn*

yesterday dad flew back from taipei.haa..and his beloved daughter and son went to the airport to fetch him home. waited at the airport till my kar wan to ji liao haha! hmm..know what dad bought for wilson and i? one whole set of computer worz..with flat screen and new keyboard and the mouse so nice worz.haha! my dad is so great! hahaz. i love him so so so much!haha!

tomorrow got class test sia..and i already studied le.just finish studying only.haha.its quite fun to study right in front of my television hahaz.

as for my school, the days i spent in school..well im getting used to having irritating people around me..all i need to do is to have a big heart..to.. tolerate..hahaz...

hmm..later gonna read my daily devotion book.hmm..gonna share with cg on saturday..haha!need to refresh again..gotta start reading Bible again..i've lost track on where i stopped..okie..this year is the year to start being more mature in my spiritual walk with God...i think i seriously need God to guide me lohz..if not i will die...die in the hands of the worldly people hahaz..

sighhhhh..yesterday went to aunt house to take allowance..get scolded again..sigh..i don't mind being scolded if i did something wrong. but i just hate is so much when i got scolded when all she loves was to scold me. sigh. am i a person that is always wrong?what have i done? she came to my house last week..and well i took allowance from her as usual.. and she raised her voice saying so loud that i owe her money.i said..that's is only the bus fare that my dad have to return to her. then for the allowance my dad had already given to her.then she raise her voice again..at my house somemore..saying i owe her my school fees...my uniform all that money i owe her. in my heart..im boiling..i feel like giving her 10+++ pieces of my mind.. i was soooo soo angry with her..her words are so...YUCK! she thinks i like to use her husband's money to pay for my needs?my dad aren't around..if he is around, would i even look for her?would i even want to see her..words are so cheap..she always says..whatever i need..if she's able to help she will..same to her husband..but then,why do she complain so much when she had helped..i mean her husband helped with the fees all that..all she does was to grumble..was to scold..was to mai yuan.. and all i did was to keep quiet..well. keep quiet..but not totally..hahaz.. when she was at my hse..she raised her voice,im angry..i told jan abt it..and that unreasonable aunt was not happy..so she scolded me yesterday at HER house..but why she don't scold me at MY house?she want to save her mian zi ma!i totally dislike talking to her..btw..this woman don't talk,she scream de..is she a little screw loose?sigh..

going school tmr..wonder how my day will go.......weeeeeeeeee..........

weee!!im finally here lohz.heez.know why i so long never blog?coz my computer abit down.think the "heart"dying le.waiting for my dad to come back to singapore to save it.hahaz.

hmmz.this week..been alittle not so good and not that bad too.ahaz.but still i got loads of stuffs to say about people in my school.indeed,some are totally sigh..playful,childish and they seems like they are like so free..to even disturb people that they don't even know..sigh..and i was like tolerating them..till the limit where i can no longer tolerate..i scolded them..gave them a piece of my mind.well.they are the MALAYS.sigh..began to have bad impression on malays..i told them to leave my groups of friends and i alone just go away..but they din want to.they carry on acting SISI!coz sigh..one of my friend is a gay..so they are trying to be funny with him la..but he was sitting just beside me..and they came and crowd aroud us loh!i was like ARGHHH...told them in a better way..they don't listen..so i talk in a manner where i want to really get them into big trouble..know wad i say?i said:i want to see your class adviser now.and you guys know what..he run away!!!see..wad a coward..dare to disturb people with his group of 7 and more friends..and when i say i want to see the class adviser..they went off!this gay friend..really..ma fan loh..worst..want to have peace during lunchtime oso cant sia..people that the gay don't know..came to our table and disturb...i was staring at them..i was waiting for them to go..telling myself..if they carry on..they're gonna get it! MAN!!i really HATE the way they do things..the way they treat others loh..see i small in size EZ to scare me off!haha!slowly dream!i hate it so much when people likes to bully people that are in a smaller group and look EZ to be bullied!i'll shall show them what kinda person we are..and these people..sigh...they are alomost like goners...i really cant take it lehz!!ARGHHH..i ren and ren sia...i cant take it...can the school be a little more strict?can?

today had games in school during pe time..hahaz..and..i don't know why horz..i take ball the ball the go away from my hands sia..worst!!pass to wrong people..hahaz!and ah..don't know whose arm so strong...hit me and now my arm swallon.and pain sia..hahaz..

after all these times..days...i spent in school..im utterly sad of those student who behave likdat..super angry with them..but what can i do?sigh!God...strengthen mE!i need YOU!

there's this guy in my school..came to ask for my number..and i rejected him but just giving him a smile..from then on...he seems like he hates me...see me..he behave so ugly..likdat dunno kiss wad thing la..i feel that he is so childish..feel like giving him some slices of my mind..but decided just to leave him alone..if he goes overboard..i have no choice but to step into his classroom and complain to his class adviser..people like him...need to learn to respect others..and others decision..

im so sad..i don't understand why people are likdat..treating people in the bad way..thinking we are EZ to be bullied..EZ to be stepped on..why?can they just leave the school?

well..i got my test papers..i wanted full marks..but sadly..i got only 25/30...that is so sad loh..its so sad when u aim full marks when all you get is only 25..sigh...and im so upset..the others in class..copied..and they can get high marks u know!it's so unfair!!i studied loh!!!!haiz..

these days..im feeling kinda down..don't know zer mer shi hao..hai..sometimes..smiling doesn't mean everything is so fine with me can..sometime people go overboard with wad they do can..sigh..the malays...the playful ppl..the....sigh...

got test on mon...hopefully i can really get full marks loh...aRGHh...

Just got home from school.tired~today school was not very alright.cause of what?my classmates!maNn!they are like so NOISY..talk talk talk and talk talk talk.ARGHhh.i was like SHHHHHHHHHHh till i no breath.keep shhh-ing you know,and they don't listen de lehz.

they say the teacher is a sisi,say he run like sisi while he was trying to get the cleaner's help to empty the dustbin which is full of rubbish like drinks la which is NOT ALLOWED.drinks are not allowed in the class.i don't understand why people love to be against school rules.why is that so?and if they don't want to study they come to school for?making so much noise?

i don't really like being in my class.i feel like im not suppose to be there.i love my friends.every friend that i've made,they mean something in my life.they are important to me.i meet different people,people in my class,they are so different.they are not who i thought i will meet.maybe i was being put into this class because this is the year of character moulding.i believe i will be a better person after this year.heehee..and this need a lot of patience and tolerance.haha.and i know i'll learn to be patient and tolerant.

yesterday wanted to blog.but when i reached home.i am so tired to even switch on my comp hahaz.so off to bed lohz..yesterday went for Bible study at YMCA,learn about life greatest aim.and my life greatest aim is love.that is the thought came into my mind while the preacher talk abt my greatest aim in life is???.and why love has the most important value,it's because without love,all that i say is ineffective.without love,all that i know is incomplete.without love,all that i believe is in sufficient.without love,all that i give is insignificant.without love,all that i accomplish is inadequate.all i want to do was to love others.let people to be loved.but when i wanted to let a new friend of mine to feel loved and not alone,she left.i even wanted to write letters to her.letting her know that i can be her friend,she can share all her problems with me,i will be more than happy to help.but...she left...sigh..

people asks:what is Christianity?and i've known the answer.[Christianity is a lifestyle,it is a lifestyle of Love]

[Life without Love is nothing]

i still want to tell this to everyone, I Am Who I Am, I Am Who God Calls Me To Be..

The most i wanted for now is peace.i really need it so much,esp in school.hahaz

hmm.yesterday after Bible study,went to shar house!weeeee..the house the cg painted.hahaz.with so many memories there..like..the song LET IT BE....haha!and the cushions..haha!so comfy lehz..ytd i feel like im home hhaa!its so comfortable ahaha!watch vcd and ate honey baked chicken!!yummie..it taste so nice.hahaz.watch CASPER..AHHHH..when casper become human again..oh MANN~~~he is so HANDSOME!!hahaz.blue eyes..wow!wee!wee!!hahaz

and gotta go home.cause the next day i gotta go sch..ahha!well.im staying over again on friday night haha!

tomorrow im having [OFO] class test...im so excited for it!hope i can get full marks lehz haha!hope i can be one of the top 10 in class.hee.hope la.hope..its been so long since i last be one of the top ten.the last time was when i was pri 6!haha!my position was like six or seven haha!forgot hahaz.abit bo liao la.pri 6 thing now then say.ahaz.but well..im proud of it!hahaz

k lahz.gotta study liao.for test!goneeeeee...lalaalalaaaaa.....

took this picture during Mr Tay's lesson,having break.so i entertain myself again.hahaz

my day went fine today.had fun in school,not with the people in my class but my teachers.and my so called buddy..haha NELSON ONG.hahaz.well.i only like got one close friend in my pathetic class.and this friend is nelson ong loh.ahahz.we eat lunch together,go for lesson together.hahaz.all his friends walk pass..think haywire sia..please loh..this boy here is taken lehz.and i am not interested of getting one lehz.and we both are just friends,i seriously totally don't understand why people like to think the negative wan lehz.sigh.

today..during lesson,wanted to go online to do a test.on office organisation de,den horz my computer cannot go online sia.so no choice loh..share with nelson.haha.his index number is 16 i 15.haha!then we do the test together.at first 10/16 then 13/16 then 15/16..THEN..16/16..WOW..we both were like YEAH!!we did it!!haha!and i think we are the first who got it all right!hahaz.den after that i do again by myself..full marks!!wOW..PRAISE THE LORD!hahaz.God is good right..ahahaz[God is good all the time and all the time God is good]

during another lesson..don't know in the class who keep talking..or isit my teacher Mr Goh ear something wrong.but i doubt so lahz.keep talking den like got disturb by noise he cannot take it worz..he said WAA LAO Eh..i was like[hUH]my teacher ma..didn't expect this.coz it don't sound nice lahz.hahaz.but Mr Goh is indeed a good teacher.i love the way he teach..eventhough i find that he loves NAGGINg..but all is for our own good lahz.then some of the student..keep wanting to go home lehz.please loh..time table stated that school ends at 4pm loh!at 335pm they HAIYO already..eventhough teacher says that he will let us off early..but we cant demand much what.we are here to study lehz..sigh...they are in need of help sia.

hmm.tomorrow is my school's cca orientation.i am still wondering which cca i should join lehz.netball?tennis?maybe tennis?hahaz...i think tennis la..for now haha..if there is.hahaz.

tomorrow after school..gonna go help out at my uncle's coffeeshop be cashier hahaz..hopefully tomorrow weather not hot hahaz..see my uncle work till he tio half stroke..sigh..so i help..

im like so bored now..sianz....flyyyy le laaa....nitezzzzz

it's me!hahaz.im in my yellow polo tee..hahaz.im from the BUSINESS SCH!ahaaz


well.im just trying to look funny!took my classmate spec to see if this kinda spec do look good on me or not.hahz!


so it look just like that lohz.haha!


they are all my secondary school friends.my FAVOURITES!!haha!love you guys to biTTTS!!


LOOk!!it's me..when i was around sec 3 i think!haha!


Yasi and me after Christmas Celebration at Singapore Indoor Stadium!!


Cell Group Outing to Marina Bay for BBQ!!wEEeeeeee!!!

Well..going through pictures from my documents.haha.so i decided to upload some here.got more to come haha!im a zi lian type of person.more of my face will come hahahah!im just joking!haha.well..im just very happy that i finally can upload pictures together with my blog post.haha!

Just got home from aunt's place.bored~i took bus from serangoon to outram and the bus 147 is like so super warm.can you believe that im sweating like mad in the bus lohz.i spag top is like wet and i can see the wet marks siaz.so warm lehz the bus.the aircon is spoilt.sigh..i had a tough long time reaching home.i was thinking if i can just fly home into the toilet and bath with the cooling cold water!!was even thinking if i throw a whole lot of ice into the pail and splash the whole thing at myself can!the bus is just SOOOO WARM!aRGhhhH.know what i tell myself to calm myself?[it's okie,can jian fei,coz im sweating.so nevermind]haha!okie im mad.

yesterday went service and Paster preach abt Praise haa!Service was so great yesterday,everyone just praise God..keep praising God.i just love it!the prescence of God is there!

after service shar anne jason teng hong yingwei xin mike jas marv and me went east coast park!and had supper?haha!the food taste....MMMMMMM...YUMYUM.haha!its the duck soup..eh..i dunno wad soup la.verey nice can le lahz.haha!den we just joke and joke..Laugh like mad ytd.i laugh till i cry can!its my first time sia.i nv laugh till i cried b4 lehz haha!it was so fun yesterday!haha!after eating..we went walking,walked to Bedok jetty.aahhaa!!and we sat down and chit chat..talk abt a lot of things and laugh like crazie..cold jokes..and wad chicck pang thing..haha!and what shar had gone tru b4!haha..she is so brave sia.if it was me i could have dunno loh..dunno do wad already!!!haha!

then we chat till ard 3++ 4 i think and we all went home..for me,i went to stay over at shar's place haha!her bed is like..WOW..so comfy sia!i slp till like 12++1 in the noon haha!!had KFC for branch..haha!yum yum..haha!

im going for cell group later!!weeee!!i love cell group meetings..haha!!

hellos.just got home from school.hmm today school starts at 8.hahaz.ends at 3.wow!early right!haha.today in school like no lesson like that sia.got a don't how many hours of talk that make me eventually doze off on my friend's shoulder.opps..the talk is about welcoming the pioneers of the school.haha which is me!haha!

while i was fast asleep,i was actually got awaken up by a girl who is sitting behind me.MAN!words that comes out from her mouth are totally BAD!she needs help man!she is in lack of vocab?or her english language is just too TERRIBLE?she just keep scolding all those dirty ugly filthy words.i hope she did notice that i keep turning back and look at her.all i want her to know is that the words that comes out are so not appropriate.but well.in the end,i just ignore her.

after school,decided to go home..walk to my school bus stop.met a bunch of playful students from my school larz.they walk towards my friend jasmine and wanted to take a picture of her using their camera phone.then i was on the phone i did not care much abt anything that is happen in front of my prescence.but den,someone tap at my shoulder,saying hi my friend wants to know you.i just stared at him and look away as i was talking on the phone.then my bus came..i walk pass them,one guy again,say hi..and i stared at him..he just smile sia.i was not very happy about their playful behaviour.if i was not on the phone then,i might even scold them.know what they do,the were smoking outside school while the school rule was set to be that noone is allow to smoke there.and there's a lot of them going against the rules.den,they put one cigratte at a lighter which is filled with gas la.and den the lighter melt and all the gas came out splashing can.can one guy go and light it and fire came out lahz.den dunno wad la..something splash on a guy la..den he keep wiping himself..should be the gas la..haha!or wad la..dunno la.haha.sigh..they really need help lehz.

today in school i spot a handsome dude sia.haha!at first i did not notice him because im busy looking for places to sit and eat.haha!but den,i turn and look!haha!a guy looking at my direction..haha.den i dun care la..den buy food haha!the same handsome guy looking sia.haha!i was telling my friend handsome lehz..haha.well i just praise people mah..good wad haha!he is handsome indeed..den was sharing with everyone abt this handsome dude haha!some say he act cool haha!but i like his hair haha!nice!!opps..well..giving compliment doesn't mean anything okie.haha.so whoever who is reading don't go and think haywire haha!the guy is the only guy i think look handsome in my school as for now haha!he should join the Glamour quest sia.haha!

yeah!!tomorrow no need to attend school haha!isnt is so GREAT?haha!!don't have to wake up early haha!!

Got home from Bible study at YMCA haha!im at Laying Foundation already!!finally!!at first,im only at Getting started!!wow!haha!

hmm.wanted to blog yesterday.but my computer is a little sot.i click publish post and it did not publish.sigh.long entry lai de lehz.well.its all about school again,i seriously,totally don't like some of my classmates,i totally don't understand the goodness of lying.seriously speaking,i hate people who lies.liars don't go to heaven.and some love to make so much noise in class.but today,the class is a little quiet.Thank God for a little peace in class.well,i hate problems that people do but not the people larz.haah!

recently i met many people.i notice that not everyone is what i think they are.some are like not acting their age.some are totally...sigh..not everyone can be what i think they have to be.i just got to accept who they are and be patient with them.noone is perfect..

i've got used to the life in school now..meeting those wu liao ren..used to it.having classmates that love to play ard not paying attention,im just trying to get use to it hahaz.

when to xin er house this afternoon after school..school ends at 2 haha!went her place, she did her first attempt to cook a dunno wad porridge.haha.den im like so tired.went to sleep at her double decker bed haha!her bed is like...soooo COMFY sia.i love her bed so much that i dun wanna get up lehz ahah.but cannot lahz haha.need to go bs haha!

take care people!

heez.just got home half an hour ago.hahaz.from where?Tampines!haha!nowadays im really going ard Tampines..

went bedok reservoir.to do what?jogging!!haha.i very long never exercise le worz.went with xin and anne.i tell you what,anne can really run non-stop!well.as u can see,im the first to stop.haha!but i already not bad le worz.a person who did not exercise for a year can actually run almost half the reservoir.that's not bad kayz.haha!and i really run worz.eventhough im telling myself im dying.haha.the reservoir is really BIG horz.haha.xin run till she headache.haha!den we sat at the pathway haha!and under the hot sun,well i got tanned!!haha.abit only lahz.eh,better than nothing worz.hhaa!!but the weather is not good lehz.for a little while it drop little drops of rain.for a little while its so sunny haha!and its really windy.i just love the wind haha!!

im hands are like aching lehz.wondering how come not my leg?haha!

hmmz.went Tampines,xin er house.looking at her packing her whole lot of....erm...RUBBISH?no lah..things loh haha!now,finally her room is more like a place where its suitable for human!haha!well im just joking larz.hahaz

was on the webcam with dad.its so cold over taiwan.saw my baby sister,ru xin.she is so super cute manz.arGhh i wanna carry her lahz.can she just fly back?haha!well..dad is coming back on the 5th of Feb.haha!im gonna fetch him at the airport.see,he got such a good daughter that love him so much loh.i know he love me too larz.coz..he almost say it whenever we are on da phone haha!

i wanna eat delifrance!!xin xin..when????????hahaa!!

sometimes i really hate it when people don't be responsible for what they have to do.do they know this word call responsibility?

it's been almost 3 months++ ever since gong gong went up to heaven.but i dun see any tombstone at his "place"its was said that they will get it done when the soil is harden and it is already harded.but why not yet?coz of somebody loh.nv sign thing lahz.well i not very sure isit that la..sigh..[these days been thinking abt my gong gong worz.i miss him so much,took xin hp to view at his pictures..i really miss him so so so so much..his laughter..his jokes..his blur blur eyes like huH?..i miss them all lorz.]

Be Blessed everyone!!

It's Saturday!haha.don't need to go to school!hahaz.woke up ard 1++2pm.hahaz.i'm like so bored at home.there's nothing for me to do.nothing at all sia.hahaz

yesterday.went to school!i was late for like 15mins!know WHY?that bus 31 from Tanah Merah Interchange,is full!and the second bus 31 is oso FULL!den came one double deck bus 31.the students ah!!really make me angry can!!the first level of the bus is fully packed but the second is like soooooo EMPTY!and they so not considerate.everyone is going to the same school and everyone need to be there early.they just do not move!i wait till i scared my Class Adviser mark me late okie.i wake up so early i don't want to let people just marked me loh.

well.for people who know abt this guy who kept pestering me.haha.he stopped finally!haha!well.he sms "jessie"haha.ppl u know lahz.ppl who i told the story to.["jessie"]haha!

one thing i don't like abt my uniform..will always zhao gen.sigh.must beware all the time haha!

yesterday.went church after school.man.the journey ah..so long..from Tampines to Boonlay lehz.haha.meet xin and janice at Tampine Station Control.long journey.haha.den to entertain myself again,i took picures.hha!well.i actually forgot how to use jan's hp to take pic sia.haha.then,reach church,had dinner.haha.ate spaghetti.WOW!ytd..service was great!i love it..i took notes.like:what is faithfulness?[Faithfulness is the ability to control my fear]what is meekness?[Meekness is not Weakness,Meekness is the ability to control my anger]i must really learn to control my fear and anger this year.it's time to grow a level higher in my spiritual walk too.i really want to be a CGL one day!!haha!

im gonna have dinner at marina bay with my cg!!haha.wow..!!yum yum!

-take loads care everyone-

hee.im home!just finish eating egg tarts and bread talk bread haha!guess it will be my dinner.hahaz.yum yum..shoooo full...haha.

today school went great!haha.today i tot i will be alone..worst without my one and only friend more alone sia.sigh..but then i was not.God is good all the time and all the time God is good..He answered my prayer worz.haha.God blessed my day,let me not be alone.let me be happy.haha!and i've made more frenz today!!and they are from my permanant class de.haha.they are so kind loh.starting when we go to our new class,i was alone..i was in the different class with my malay fren.so we got seperated sia.haha.then my new frens came to smile at me..and ask me what my name and they intro themselves to me..asking me to join them for tea break and lunch and join them in the group in class haha.and they are so funny..we keep laughing all the time..haha.i made 6 new frenz ahaha.isnt that great?haha!Thank God for this!!!haha.

i just gotta know that my class got one gay sia.and he got bf de lehz!!oh my gwash!!!he even showed my frens the sms that his"bf"send to him.all of us,the girls,in the cafeteria were like"eeeeeeeeee!!"oh no!!and his behaviour!its totally no good lohz.sigh..but he look like a good boy and look str8 not crk8.sigh..den sadly..he is a crk8.he is a good guy i can see.hahaz.

okie.back to the guy who sms me call me ytd wan.he today sms me call me and hang again!!!i felt so irritated and i feel that he is pestering me.sigh.but i dun wanna show my anger.i just hope that he knows theres limit to things.he sms me saying:y u look so fustrated and stress today?isit coz of me?erm.y dun likdat?ltr i treat u to a lunch.den after sch treat u again to cheer u up?..and i clever enough i din reply.coz i dun think there's a need!i stress or wad oso no need to have lunch wad.wadsmore its my prob not his.and i was not even STRESS and FUSTRATED lehz.and den,he sms me again..saying:pls reply?can i treat u a meal?i wan to see u smile.ur that malay fren ask mi to call u but i wan to help u save money so sms u.[see?everything is out,he is just trying to find stupid reason to ask me out for a meal,wad stress wad fustrated,i was not even feeling that way.i was just not smiling and was waiting for class adviser to tell me the class im been posted to!!!!!wad see me smile,he wan me to smile i smile to him mehz?well i always smile as all my frenz knows that lehz.he is wierd man..haiyo!he sae he nv call me,wanna help to save my hp money!he gave me five miss calls just today loh!!!!!!!!!!!is he mad?he called my hp in the morning at 6.for wad?he send 2 sms to say shang ke le where are u?do i have to report to him?i wasnt even his fren.i nv even talk to him.not even know his name.well he told me his name ytd.haha!and during my lesson time he keep calling.arGhh..FIVE miss calls just in one day!opps..it just ended up 10 miss calls in a day abt 10mins ago..haha!!he is terrible..sigh..but well..forget it.

sigh.cant stand it lahz.nowadays i've been using words like aie..not good sia.abit rude liao.must watch le.okie..gotta end here..

muack!!

Got home half an hour ago.from wherE?Tampines!!haha.these days,i've been hanging ard Tampines Mall together with xin xin.hahaz.

today,woke up at 7am.went to get prepared and left my house at 745am-750am likdat.reached Outram Mrt station at ard 8am.got into the train at abt 803am.reached Tanah Merah interchange at ard 830am.the bus came at ard 835am lahz.reached school at 745am likdat haha.im early for school today!hahaz.school was great.but..not the people.actually afew only lahz.i really loves all my teacher that is incharge of my temporary class.they are just so nice loh.but some people in my class just like to make fun of one of my teacher.and im so sure that he knows it,he just continue with the positive attitude,carry on smiling.while the students is laughing at him.the students are really too much.sigh.i've been in the same class with them for 3 days.only know abt 6ppl.1 close fren nia.den..i dun even know other guys or girls.den....while the whole business school students are at Multi Purpose Hall[mph]for a concert.ppl sing song in chinese..the guys make those booooo sound can.and its so loud..why cant they just stay quiet and respect the ppl that is performing for welcoming the first year student?why ner?sigh.after 2hrs of performance,i was abt to go tampines to meet xin xin..den i was walking out of my seat.sia la....got one guy approached me sia..my class guy la.but i don't know him de.completely stranger.and he got no reason to ask for my number loh.but that time i act blur..i turn to my fren i keep sayin huh..but!!!but this fren..dun get my hint..she just say:oh..he wants your number..i was like..ERRR!haha!oh..okie..[acting blur] den i give lohz.sigh..i dun wan to give wan can..aRGHH...den i met xin..went to eat..den watch movie..well..we kinda lag behind,we watched the incredibles.haha..so funny and so interesting!!haha so nice...haha..den that guy called..my hp was in slient mode.so i don't know that someone called me..and he call thrice and sms like more than thrice..sia la..know wad he called me,he called me sweet.well its the same meaning as sweetie lahz..YUCK!i don't even know him.and den..he called me again and i sense the vibration so i answered the call.know what the guy say?he says:ur hp incoming call free?i would like to ask u things abt school..den i say:oh..so what u wan to ask abt sch?he ended that call sia!den sms me..same thing lahz.but i was thinking[The whole class has got the teacher's handphone number.why would he choose to call me instead of the teacher?]why????sigh..well i don't care him lahz.luckily tomorrow i will go to my permanant class liao.hopefully he not in the same course as me..haha!i know im being bad..but i don't want guys like him to interrupt my life in sch.got one more guy,i was thinking he man or not sia.i was walking behind of him..den looking for my fren.den he ahem.[all he wans is to be of me]i was like thinking..can u give way?other guys sure give way wan loh.not him sia.the malays are even better den him..they will say:ladies first and let me walk in front of them.but jus not him loh.sianz.haha!but i dun care lahz.haha.

i find that the food in my sch...taste abit...not nice lahz.haha..oppppssss..hahaz

ytd got one of my fren called me si charbo lehz..ah lian lai de..cant blame..but i use my positive attitude to reply her saying:eh..dun likdat call me lahz..haha!and we both laughed..haha.

today..school went fine.tommorrow,actual lesson starts haha!

-love you all-
-muacks-

it's Monday!haha.it's my first day at school.haha.school starts at 9am today hahaz.the moment i stepped into my school i was like wow..its really big and got loads of people around hahaz.i head up to the don't know wad hall.to register that im there.haha.you guys know what?for my school,we just need to tap our ez-link card at the card reader to show that we attended school.like punch card likdat.hahaz.the card readers are at everywhere in the school.hahaz.

today went to my temporary class.sigh.the ah lians are all there lohz.some act lians.some indian ah lian.one of the lian,don't know she come school is to show she lian or just trying to be funny.then one of my new friend thinks that she is kinda lame lahz, then i think she keep staring at that ah lian.den that ah lian stared back like want to fight sia.i faster siam.i den dun wan to get involve in childsplay sia.hahaz.and you know what,the school is like so wonderful,but you see after school the bus stop....MAN!its polluted man.with smokers.got girls somemore lehz.spoil image sia.

i went to school with my super long skirt sia.look so nerdy.hahaz.and then my super short hair.well i cut my hair at a cheap price.10 dollars nia hahaz.imagine my super long long nice hair..and changed to super short not as nice as my long hair..i've indeed chou hua myself lahz.well go to school no need to be so pretty.but i see the girls in my school got put make up.mascara.draw the eyebrown till so thick.and skirt so short lehz.now i cant wait for my long hair to come back hahaz.my class adviser say can put light make up wor.aiya nv say earlier i put some blusher la.today i nv put anything on my white face worz.haha.don't know got scare ppl mahz haha.

my school seems to be like got a lot of malays lehz..and they are very playful wan.my fren walk pass..they whistle.i was like,[saying in my heart]hello u calling who?dog?cat?or wad?so rude lehz.those people just need to be disciplined.and my class has only about 5 guys and the rest of the 15 are all girls haha!but is only the temporary class lehz.hopefully i won't be in the same class as the ah lian..hopefully all my class people all guai guai wan.haha.then i will go to school super happy sia.now okie loh..happy also.but i just hate it when people trying to play ard when its time to get serious.

i was so quiet today.no friend.i choose the wrong people to mix with.i choose the malays.sigh..they just keep talking among themselves and then when i went to talk to them,no response.i was like talking to the wall.so i was thinking that thursday kuai dian lai.haha.so i can change class.make more friendly but not racies friend..they like racies sia..sigh.we also human what.different skin colour only mahz.why likdat?sighhhh..

during lunchtime.i was so not zi zai.so i dun have the appitite to eat.i did not eat my favourite food..know wad's that?chicken rice loh.my fren ask me to eat at least something so i bought watermelon and honeydew.that was my breakfast and lunch.for my dinner..yum yum.i ate burger king haha.well..my dinner starts at 250pm..haha!!i cant wait to know more people..more good people i mean.

i really like my school worz.haha.everything is like so great.we called ourself the business school student.and we are from ite college east.sia la..college worz.haha!one more thing,my class adviser very kind and good worz.she is Mrs Ng,was from ite clementi actually..she ask for transfer because she like ite college east hahaz.she is so friendly.she treat us like her friend lehz.haha.she is teaching book keeping.but i cant take that.im not good with numbers.so i cant get into that course.i was thinking doing social and grooming..but i decided to put at my second choice.my first choice will still be multimedia design and publishing[mdp].today,the class i was in is the first class in office skills worz.haha good right.haha.Thank God.but well..everything was fine today.noone disturb me.haha.peace worz.haha.

tomorrow im gonna tour ard the school haha.cant wait to know more about my wonderful school hahaz.well..that's all for now..

-take care people-
-be blessed-

My pLan fAiled..

went out with xin for the try out yesterday.haha.it was quite easy to go to my new beautiful school.i'll just got to stop at Tanah Merah and take a bus to my school.ahaha..easy right?heez..after the try out.we were thinking to take one straight bus to Tampines.so we change bus.but we didn't know that we were actually on the correct bus previously.so the two blur girls went to took a bus that ended us up at bedok.haha!we were still like happy chatting away.haha!but well.its alright.i still can afford the time haha!

after that we took train to tampines..wanted to cut my super long long long hair.but the moment we get into the shop.its like so many people and we asked how long we should wait.the lady said 2hrs.wow.and in 2hrs time she is closing.well she closes at 7pm while i was there at 5pm.hahaz.so in conclusion i cant cut my super long long long hair lahz.first mission failed.

then......wanted to get black shoe for school..but..at the moment i reach the converse shop at Tampines.i hold on to the black shoe and was wondering if this shoe can anot.but decided not to buy first.wait till i go to school on mon and ask my teacher what kinda shoe must i get.so i wun waste my money but i was also worried that i might get scolded tomorrow.arGh..so second mission failed.

before i meet xin at Tanah Merah.i went to Serangoon.my second aunt's place.to do what?get my weekly allowance for me and my lazy brother.but............when i reached her doorstep.she was not home.the whole family was not home!they went to The Singapore Zoological Garden.but..they should had tell me first what.they know that i will go over to their place.but well.adult always right.whatsmore..she is doing my dad a favour to help buy passing our allowace to us weekly.so i better be good to her.if not i will get a hell from her manz.anyway.she is a....tigeress..so i went on a wasted trip.and upset Jessie left for Tanah Merah.hahaz.so..third mission failed!

all these mission i planned de can!a plan that failed.hahaz.so yesterday..just went shopping..went shopping with shar xin..and we met shelia.the Long Meng Ke Zan de Lao Ban Liang!![if you've been to the Singapore indoor Stadium on christmas eve and christmas day,you will know what im talking abt]and shar and shelia chat and chat.then we went to Starbucks.hahaz.i was hungry.so i order chocolaty muffin and what chocolate frapucinno.aiya don't how to spell hahaz.and the place was so cold..hahaz.i drank the whole lot of it.and eat the whole lot of it.and..i was having a bad stomach pain after that.and the toilet is like sooooooooo far!for the first time i walk to the toilet.den the second time..my stomach was like..dying..so pain can.i cant even sit properly.so xin and i ran to the toilet.and well..everything was settled in there.thank God for the toilet paper.coz i think that was the only cubicle left which has got toilet roll in there haha!

then shar jae and me went to meet the Fockers,haha!it ended at 2++ i was dead tired.haha.took a cab home.channel 8 was showing a horror show.i sat down with wilson and jan.watch it..well i watched before le lehz.just that i forgot the story liaoz.hahaz.

hmm.later i will be going Tampines again.to cut my super long long long hair.well its cheaper than my very own salon that i always goes..since i was in primary one..so i'll just gotta save money.im going Tampines.hahaz.

tomorrow im starting school.got the fear of getting scolded haha.how my shoe?sigh.

wondering my new hair will look acceptable to me anot.it better be lohz.haha.

-gone-

am i just worrying too much?well im just too free.for now.

7th January 2005

well.just got home.from my real late dinner.haha.with my beloved brother.hahaz.i got my pay today.so i give wilson a treat at Da Pai Dan store.at my house downstair.cost quite a lot lahz.a lot for me haha.as you know i spend by how much i get from my baobei allowance..but nvm.i use my salary hahaz.i was so hungry you guys know why?coz..i only had Pearl Milk Tea from Takashimaya for dinner sia.haha.den rush to church liao haha.i was walking alone at town today.went wisma to take my cash paid salary haha!

while eating, wilson and i was talking about guys, people like his campmates.one of his campmate told him that i called him.so wilson ask me about it,saying:how come u called *****?.i replied:huh?since when?i don't even know that i called him.which from the time i know him till now,i have never ever called him at all worz.and i told wilson..:hello,im ur sister,you got to know me for like so long..do u think i will call any of your friends for no reason?and esp for *****..will i even call?well..this person,we're like strangers.so there's no reason for me to call him lahz.and obviously that person is lying.

and something happened today!SIGH!but i don't want to say le lahz.im so so so sick of it.i think i have fear for guys now.well but not all lahz.some niaz.it's not that i think too much.coz i can see what is going on right in front of me.esp that 20-25 year old man at the bus stop.sigh.i was so scared that i keep thinking that he might stalk me.btw.i was being stalked before even without me knowing it.till that person called for me lahz,and stupid me turn and respone la.hahz.worst,few months back,some old man ask for my num at that same bus stop sia.well.in the year 2004 i met quite a num of wierd people.i think that is the cause that im so afraid now.im so scared whenever i go home alone.everywhere in the world is not safe.somemore my house here abit wulu lahz.that causes me to be like a scary mao lahz.how?im really very scared lehz.sigh.how i wish my brother everyday at home.so i feel more protected.yah but will have to wait la.sianz.now i everyday waiting for weekend.haha.so i can see wilson and then my dao sao will come..den we can chit chat haha.im looking forward to it!!!

today i went to school.inside the school i was like wow!so big!so modern.haha.bought uniform..so chou wan.i dunno how to choose than anyhow loh.den now so chou loh.sigh.must get black shoe lehz.where can i buy nice and have a good price black shoe?hmm.then buy uniform guess how much it cost?60 sia..my heart sank.so expensive.can buy one Gior jeans lehz..or two or three tops lehz.btw im mad about Gior wan.hahaz.

sigh.nowadays.i've been worrying..i scared of meeting people like this and that.i scared when i go home tio stalked or meet ti ko pek.well..i know its needless worry.and im not a born worrier.i think i need to pray more liao.which i will!it's 2005 resolution:grow a level higher in my spiritual walk with God.

while i was in service just now.saw pictures of many dead bodies.the Tsunami.man!bodies are stacking upon each other.and its left untouched.just covered.some are not even covered.and the people who are injured.oh dear..know wad..there's a man whose skull was open..can see his brian lehz.den the pic was show..the opening is real biG man..and Dr Francis said that the person need to be at the proper operating theater.but i forget wad le.in the end operate the man just right beside the drain.and many people's wound are like so big...and the moment i see the pictures i feel like vomitting.the wound is like so pain.OUCH~so big can..and yellow.the pus all that lahz.so painful.

sun has given BIRTH!!!yeah!!little DAYAN..is sooooo cute!!!hahhaa...

now xin xin helping me to find way to go to mua sch haha!thanks xin er.ni ren zhen hao.ai si ni le lahz.haha.sorry to trouble u worz.haha.i don't know anything abt simei..haha.

-fly-

Today went to my school at simei with uncle edmund.he drive me there.haha.was thinking how to go my school if i take train than bus..how ah?people help me.uncle edmund and i was like going around simei non stop.we pass by the same place 3-4 times man.his petrol..sure gone!haha.den he keep going wrong place coz he is totally not familiar with simei.we both were like..nono is here..turn here..he nono is there..den we both aiya..wrong place.haha!den we ended up talking abt his driving license is manual or auto.haha.den talk about he more familiar with manual or auto haha..my school so nice worz..haha..so many ppl..i din enter the school today..tomorrow den is my day to enter the school haha!sigh.hopefully on saturday my try out will be a good wan.haha.im gonna try to go sch all by myself..try to take bus from bedok.bus 9 to the school..dunno correct ma..sigh..hopefully correct.if not i will have to depend on the cab driver for abt a few days.

sigh.i not used to having schoolmate who is guy.haha!not used to have classmate who is a guy.more girls can ma?hopefully no lians and bengs which i think most probably will have lahz.but i seriously hope dun have lehz..later they spoil my day how..spoil my life how..haha!but nvm lah.i wun die there haha!i will show them im not ez to bully de..well if they make me boil lahz.if not i stay away better.haha.

now one more problem.i don't know where is the entrance of the sch.got many entrance lehz.so which one ner?i dun have the school map sia..hopefully i will have good teachers in school.not like my bro sch wan.sigh.my bro sch de teacher say my bro is a drug addict when he is not.sigh.some holds pride so high!my bro fair cant blame ma.if i go to his school i oso drug addict..coz im so fair as u all know..white like dunno wad..so im a drung addict lahz.sigh..tt sch..really..sigh..shall not name out the sch..

today so bored at home manz.my manager nv give me my dec pay!!!!aRGHHH...i cant cut my long long long hair!!no $$and she keep saying the person in-charge nv get back to her!!sigh..so when that person in-charge gonna get back to her.i need to get ready for sch lehz.need to buy shoe oso.sianz.how i wish my dad is back loh.so i no worries.tt manager nv pay me my earnings..howwwww???sigh..so fan..

tmr im going to sch..buy uniform..pay fees..hmm...im excited to go to sch haha!cant wait to walk in the school haha..

-gone-

dear all.im here again.bored~~been staying at home for 2 days.never go out.been watching this vcd[dou yu].wow..the actor is sooo handsome loh..and the actress is soo pretty..the handsome actor is pin chao haha!so tall so handsome haha!well he belongs to annie..right annie?hahah!!im just joking haha..hmm the show not bad la..can make me cry de.just like the korean show[endless love]haha..so sad..pin chao died in the end..sigh...well it's just a show haha..storyline..very messy lahz..fight here and there..life as a gangster..

these days..i'm wondering why people in the world are so crazy..i just received a phone call from one stupid irritating guy..who i don't even know..he got my number from somewhere and then tell me he is my fren[Jason Ng's] fren..his name is andy..and i say im sorry i don't know you.and he said..now u are talking to me..so we are friends right..i said..im sorry we are not.i don't even know who are you lohz.then you know wad this irritating person say?he sae..nor remember during november we went to sentosa..and we hold hands etc..i was like hUH?since when?den you guys know what..i almost believe that i went sentosa during november which i din..well i stm..cant rem anything sia..which is NOT A GOOD THING!haiz..i was so angry with this guy manz.hello..if im the last time jessie..i may yaya haha..play flirt with him..but now...please lah..i told him..you wan to hold my hand?wait long long..look into the mirror first..i was so angry..called me and ask me so many thing..wad sch im at..where i stay wad im doing now..all that..wad a irritating guy manz.im not being hostile here..but i really don't know him wad!then i called Jason Ng wanted to scold him..when i was about to start my scolding..i ask why u give my number away AGAIN??????jason said..huh?where got..i only got give paul[my pri sch fren]only one guy lehz.den i said who is andy?why u give..well jason is good he ask for the num and called that irritating bu zhi liang li bu yao lian de ren..saying li xiang lai..whua si jason..den the both talk..sigh..typical guys la..btw they are bengs lai de..sigh!!!i really cant take it manz..people like that irritating bu zhi liang li de andy..yuck!!say what i hold his hand!!yuck!!last time i will make fren with ppl i don't know..i was just a small girl girl..now..eventhough im only 17..i truly believe that im not like those TYPICAL OUTSIDE GIRL!stupid people like them..only like to make me boil!yuck!!i really despise people like them..so bu zhi liang li..so bu yao lian..im so angry loh.wad hold his hand.give me for free i oso dun wan.i friendly okie la..still come and irritated me..stupid..this year resolution:don't be so friendly with people i do not know.must be FIRM with my words.well i learn that recently which im being name as hostile girl..well who cares!some guys will sms me almost everyday sia.i told him that its not wise to sms everyday..i don't mind if we are friends..but friends oso dun sms everyday.well..he told me something..i shall not say it out here..[personal]haha!

people in the world are terrible..someone told me..not everyone in the world are bad is just that you have not meet the good yet.i was like ya..i always meet the bad loh.in my 17years of living..i have not meet a good one.sigh..people in my church can say good.but not everyone one is good there also.must beware too.guys in the world.eventhough they are in their twenties.i tell you.they are also like those 18 19 years old guys.same one.i met them..if not i wun say they are likdat.some 19 guys.thinking so not 19.sad man.its time to grow up and think more manly.they are e people in the world.they only like to go and club.well people at 17-18-19-20.people that i met.some are likdat.majority lahz..why cant they just do something useful?instead of wasting their life,time in those places..these places are not bad.but i believe there are many more things for them to do..better than wasting time and money there.ohh..thank God im not them..well i used to be like them haha.but not anymore.haha!for me.i have many why and why not questions to ask for ppl in the world.dou jiang le.people in the world liao..haha..but im not against them.

i really dun like people like andy!YUCKS!isnt it sad for him..first impression..BAD!haha..huai ren..ah bengs are bad..why people join gang?they are timid..they need people to help them to do wad?fight.they cant talk.sigh..they are always lack of courage..need more companion..some bengs are not bad..but..they are broken-hearted..but you know.Bible says:God heals the broken-hearted..and i was once a broken hearted..and God healed me..lians ner?same lahz.why do people smoke?relieve stress..only smoking can relieve stress mehz.?for me..listening to music..its better.why do people drink liquor?to show how sad they can be..and running away from their problem..no matter how drunk you are..the problem is still there..stay strong and face it..nothing is impossible..why do people fight?to show they are li hai.but deep down..they are not..they are cowards..they are being hurt..they think only fight can settle their problem..and it is such a silly thought they have.why do people badmouths..they are simply jealous of someone better than them lohz.why do ppl stare with anger and hatred in their eyes at others..aiya..they are jealous that other have got much more beautiful eyes than them loh..why do people use dirty ugly flithy words?they are in lack of vocab.and..they cant speak good english or chi..or another way of relieving stress,anger,etc...wow..is that a cure?why do people think so negative?they think nth is possible for them..they have got low self-esteem..they give up.well..its 2005..its time for a change!!!

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-yAwn-woke up about an hour ago hahaz.took afternoon nap haha.today is new year's day!!HAppy NeW yEar people!!and today is sister Jeannie's wedding day!!haha..and guess what i help her to do??...im her BRIDESMAID!!haha i was shocked when she ask this favor from me..haa.i tot all i need to do was to do up the decorations..and guess who is the best man?its alvin!haha..is like a DAD bringing his daughter for her wedding!!suppose to be alan..but he's too tall haha.coz im short as you can see.hahaz.there's another couple too..and guess who that?it's marvin and jasmine..haha.jasmine look sooooo pretty today!as for marvin..still the same lahz.haha.i was so tired today..i slept ard 4 ytd..woke up at 7 to get prepared to go aunt's place and headed straight to church..haha.looking at sistaer Jeannie with her beautiful wedding gown..man!she is soooooo pretty!!and Brother zhishen..handsome..haha.their wedding picture look so funny..haha..esp that twist wan..ytd we were practising to walk on the red carpet..haha..and we must really walk realllll slow man.haha.and alvin and i was the first "couple" to walk out..i was like..very nervous..coz..everyone is looking..well..today i wore white dress..and anne's $100 heel..man..my foot hurts..haha..the heel is high..haha..i seldom wear dress wor..today exception..but it's totally not jessie loh ahaa..so i changed after the refreshment..haha..was telling jae..see..this den is jessie haha..

oh..before i forget..when the couples are walking out..haha..we all need to do a pose..and guess what marvin and jasmine posed? marvin kneeled on his knees..haha..for alvin and me..he did the manly pose den i do the girly pose..see i 17 so must gal gal..haha..

ytd while we were rehearsing..den..i think brother francis..isit?erm i not sure..was acting as pastor i think..haha..im not so sure la..announcing jeannie and zhisen man and wife..den sound crew played this song right after the announcement..WHAT!!you know u know WHAT..that song..everyone laugh..and shar..fall on the ground and laugh!!haha.well zhisen so dramatic so play tt song..so funny..haha..

today anne and kristle look so tai tai loh..so pretty..really so pretty..while going home..i called for anne and kristle..but nv ans me..till.....i shouted...tai tai!!!both turn!!hahhaahaha.....they are the pretty girls man..so beautiful..

shar wore skirt today!!and shar really look great in that!!seriously..shar should dress more girly la..haha..she look so sweet loh..shar..you really look so great can.haha..

ytd pastor preached about visions and goals..and y ppl dun set goals..firstly:ignorance.secondly:laziness.thirdly:resignation.lastly:presumption..

Pro16:9 [The soul of a lazy man desires, and has nothing;but the soul of the diligent shall be made rich.]Jesus is against worrying but not planning.so we gotta plan.fail to plan,plan to fail.we need to set goals in our lifes.

Pro13:16 [A wise man thinks ahead;a fool doesn't and even brags about it]i seriously think that everyone should plan their life.and goals..and pray to God about it because God has the last word.

abt tsunami..i was like..man..we are really living in the end times..tribulations..people in the world really need to be save and surrender their life to God..God is so good..God has made big changes in me in my life..and i Thank God for loving me.people..God is good all the time...and all the time God is good..trust your life to him..God's love is unconditional..thinking back..who?in the world..will love you unconditionally?only God's love...i really wish that the killerwave will ease soon...its so sad to see ppl dying ard us...

hmm..may everyone have a blessed new year!!God bless!!

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